OST Brave Story - けつい の あさ に

どうせならもう ヘタクソな夢を描いてゆこうよ
どうせならもう ヘタクソで明るく愉快な愛のある夢を
「気取なくていい　かっこつけない方がおまえらしいよ」
一生懸命になればなる程　空回りしてしまう僕らの旅路は
小学生の手と足が一緒に出ちゃう行進みたい
それもまたいいんじゃない　生きてゆくことなんてさ
きっと　人に笑われるくらいがちょうどいいんだよ

心の奥の奥　閉じ込めてた本当の僕
生身の３６度５分　飾らずにいざ we don't stop
けどまだ強がってるんだよ　まだバリアを張ってるんだよ
痛みと戦ってるんだよ

辛い時　辛いと言えたらいいのになぁ
僕たちは強がって笑う弱虫だ
淋しいのに平気な振りをしているのは
崩れ落ちてしまいそうな自分を守るためなのさ
僕だけじゃないはずさ　行き場のないこの気持ちを
居場所のないこの孤独を
抱えているのは

他人の痛みには無関心
そのくせ自分の事となると不安になって
人間を嫌って　不幸なのは自分だけって思ったり
与えられないことをただ嘆いて
三歳児のようにわめいて
愛という名のおやつを座って待ってる僕は
アスファルトの照り返しにも負けずに
自分の足で歩いてく人達を見て思った
動かせる足があるなら
向かいたい場所があるなら
この足で歩いてゆこう

もう二度とほんとの笑顔を取り戻すこと
できないかもしらないと思う夜もあったけど
大切な人達の暖かさに支えられ
もう一度信じてみようかなと思いました

辛い時　辛いと言えたらいいのになぁ
僕たちは強がって笑う弱虫だ
淋しいのに平気なふりをしているのは
崩れ落ちてしまいそうな自分を守るため　だけど
過ちも傷跡も　途方に暮れ　べそがいた日も
僕が僕として生きてきた証にして
どうせなら　これからはいっそ誰よりも
思い切りヘタクソな夢を描いてゆこう
言い訳を片付けて　堂々と胸を張り
自分という人間を　歌い続けよう

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douse nara mou hetakuso na yume wo egaiteyukou yo
douse nara mou hetakuso de akaruku yukai na ai no aru yume wo
"kidonnakute ii, kakkotsukenai hou ga omaerashii yo"
isshoukenmei ni nareba naru hodo, karamawari shiteshimau bokura no tabiji wa
shougakusei no te to ashi ga issho ni dechau koushin mitai
soremo mata iinjyanai, ikiteyuku koto nante sa
kitto hito ni warawareru kurai ga choudo iinda yo

kokoro no oku no oku, tojikometeta hontou no boku
namami no sanjyuuroku do go fun, kazarazu ni iza WE DON'T STOP
kedo mada tsuyogatterunda yo, mada BARIA wo hatterunda yo
itami to tatakatterunda yo

tsurai toki, tsurai to ietara ii no ni naa
bokutachi wa tsuyogatte warau yowamushi da
sabishii no ni heiki na furi wo shiteiru no wa
kuzureochite shimaisou na jibun wo mamoru tame na no sa
boku dake jyanai hazu sa, ikiba no nai kono kimochi wo
ibasho no nai kono kodoku wo
kakaeteiru no wa

hito no itami ni wa mukanshin
sono kuse jibun no koto to naru to fuan ni natte
hito wo kiratte, fukou na no wa jibun dake tte omottari
ataerarenai koto wo tada nageite
sansaiji no you ni wameite
ai to iu na no oyatsu wo suwatte matteru boku wa
ASUFUARUTO no terikaeshi ni mo makezu ni
jibun no ashi de aruiteku hitotachi wo mite omotta
ugokaseru ashi ga aru nara
mukaitai basho ga aru nara
kono ashi de aruite yukou

mou nidoto honto no egao wo torimodosu koto
dekinai kamo shirenai to omou yoru mo atta kedo
taisetsu na hitotachi no atatakasa ni sasaerare
mou ichido shinjite miyou ka na to omoimashita

tsurai toki, tsurai to ietara ii no ni na
bokutachi wa tsuyogatte warau yowamushi da
sabishii no ni heiki na furi wo shiteiru no wa
kuzureochite shimaisou na jibun wo mamoru tame dakedo
ayamachi mo kizuato mo tohou ni kure beso ga ita hi mo
boku ga boku to shite ikitekita akashi ni shite
douse nara korekara wa isso dare yori mo
omoikiri hetakuso na yume wo egaiteyukou
iiwake wo katazukete, doudou to mune wo hari
jibun to iu ningen wo utaitsuzukeyou

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"On the Morning of Determination"

in any case, let's go on painting our awkward dreams
in any case, our awkward dreams of bright, joyful love
"no need to put on airs, you're more like you when you aren't pretentious"
the harder we toil the more our fruitless journey seems like the progress of a grade-schooler, hands and feet aflailing
but that's fine too, isn't it, what it means to live
surely, to be laughed at is exactly what I intended

deep, deep in my heart is the hidden, true me
flesh and blood of 36.5 degrees celsius, unembellished, come now, we don't stop
but we're still pretending to be strong, still putting up barriers,
still battling pain

When in pain, I wish we were able to confess that it hurts
we are but weaklings pretending to be tough
to pretend that I'm all right when I'm lonely is to protect my self that threatens to crumble
I'm sure I'm not the only one, that embraces these feelings that have no destination, this loneliness that has no whereabouts

Uncaring for the pains of others
yet growing uncertain with regards to myself
disliking people, thinking that I'm the only one who's unfortunate
at things I'm not granted I only sigh,
cry like a three-year-old infant
sitting waiting for this thing called love
I shan't lose to the reflection of asphalt,
I thought, watching those who walk by their own feet
if there are feet that you can move
if there are places where you want to go
let's walk there with these very feet

there are nights when I thought, we might not be able to reclaim our true smiles, but,
supported by the warmth of those who are dear to us,
I had thought that I'd like to try believing once more

When in pain, I wish we were able to confess that it hurts
we are but weaklings pretending to be tough
to pretend that I'm all right when I'm lonely is to protect my self that threatens to crumble, however
mistakes, scars, days when the way darkens, days of childish tear-stained faces,
these things will be the proof of my existence
in any case, from now on, with more, much more resolution than anyone else,
let's carry on painting our awkward dreams
put away our excuses, puff out our chests with pride,
let's carry on singing songs of the people we call ourselves